On the final day of year 2022, I just went through a serious sickness, covid-19. To recover from the illness, I tried all methods that I knew but in vain. Spattered the mint oil into my sore throat, ate healthier, drank more water. No matter how many efforts I tried, I still have to wake up from my sleep these days. What a serious disease!
Finally, the seventh day arrived, I felt much better. During this period, the doctor prescribed the stronger medicine to me. My illness didn't stop me from working. I finish the report for next week, and finish writing many commands on my students' score sheet.
Next day will be the brand new year. What will I do to achieve my new goal?
When I pray in these seven days, I ask God, why can not I let myself go and relax more? Why pursuing God became so difficult in my life? After a few prayer and reading the bible, I found a truth: it's never easy to get into God's Kindom. God has grace to let us decide by ourselves, but his kindom is a holy one, I need to pursue holy, without holy, no one can meet God.
Every decision matters, every thought counts. But I am grateful that God didn't judge us through all these bad thought or bad decision. Sometimes I feel hard to quit watching some non-holy news or video. But God never stop helping us.
And by the way, I am the person who really want to achieve God's standard through Jesus Christ. I remember seeing a video saying a cliche like this: "Money is not the reason that you're not happy, famous is not the reason that you're not happy, the only reason that you're not happy is : You only live half of your better self!"
What a strong saying! It's true. No matter how many effort I tried this year, 2022, I'm still not satisfied. I am still looking for a better self, who can accomplish more and enjoy more.
For the comming 2023, these things will happen:
1. I will be a master of Taiwanese, pass the exam.
2. I translate the English for the priest.
3. I have the best score of Toeic which is 990.
4. My youtube channel got 10000 subscriber.
5. My family became more welcoming to neighbors.
Another video says, don't use " I'm going to " to describe your goals. Use the present or past tense. The woman in the video says, if you see the notebook I wrote 5 years, you'll find amazing, I am living the life I describe 5 years ago.
I think that's the secret of the life. Do it, make it come true.
Hello 2023, here I come!
