Secret locker

I lock myself up for a period of time. Maybe four years since I got married in 2004.

To be honestly, I was trying to escape from another relationship while I get married. I knew that's not a proper reason for a good marriage. But I just can't do it by myself. So my husband became my savior.

Because of the wrong reason for getting married, I took longer time than usual person to find a pattern to get alone with my husband.

He is really a nice person. Kind of shy but always loves me. During the process of unemployment, he would do the laundry for me and cook dinner at home. Ever since I got home, he would chill up like a little kid, jumping and yelling: "Honey is back! Honey is back!"

I'm not sure my feeling toward him at that moment. Do I love him to fulfill my maternal feeling? Do I love him because he won't betray me? Yes, all these reasons are exactly right. The most adorable quality of his character is that he venerates God. I knew he would lead me in the soul part. I just knew it.

There are plenty of things that I like to do with him. Let he lay down on my thighs, take a scissor to cut off his beard. Or pick up the gray hair from his curly hair.

He is also a diligent person, willing to do lots of house affair for me. Ah, maybe that's because I'm not pure, so I cherish such a pure person like him. Hope this relationship would last as long as possible, if we still love each other.

A phone call from my old friend

Tonight, I receieved a phone call from my old friend. She married several years ago and got divorced one year later. But she never registered the marriage to the official. So in her ID record, that marriage never happened.

But maybe it's not a great consequence either. In recent years, she continued to involving in many relationships with different men. Some relationships are even based on the money these men paid to her.

Maybe she could be call as a prostitute. But I hate to admit that for she used to be my best friend in the old times.

However, after the conversation with her tonight, I found her life is totally in a mess.

She is seeing a violent man who is unemployment. But the man's family is rich and running a glass producing bussiness in the whole country.

But is that a promise for her future if she really married him? I don't think so.

In my humble opinion, any human being should count on himself or herself to make a living, not rely on their parents or family. She totally disagreed with me. So our conversation stop abruptly.

Wish her good luck anyway!

Dancing in the Music

Today is a lovely Sunday, I spent some time to dancing in some classical Christian music.
My action isn't that steady at first, but after some practice, my legs are getting firm on the ground. I think the most important thing about dancing is to do some motions steadily.
While the music slow down, I tried to keep my foot stable on the floor of my apratment; while the album is playing some rock musics, I would dance like a wild beast in the jungle.

After the dancing, I swept a lot and felt exchausted. But the feeling of relax overwhelm me! As an editor, the amount of my excercise is less than the average standard. So spending a few minutes to enjoy wonderful dance on Sunday night is good to my health.

Except for that reason, I need more excercise to control my weight if I want to stay fit.

Hope you enjoy your Sunday night as well!